Just Blah

I know I haven't posted for a long time.  I am on a new antidepressant and I do not like it. This is the third one I have been on.  The tamoxifen can cause depression though that's not really what it does to me.  I feel real irritable and mad all the time.  The first one made me feel jittery all the time so quit it.  The second seemed to work well and I took it for a few months til they decided it would cause problems with the tamoxifen.  I quit it cold turkey.  Learned my lesson.  Won't do that again.  Five days after I stopped it I had a complete meltdown.  They tall you it takes awhile to build up in your system but it must take five days to leave it.  OK the problem with this one is that it seems to suck the life right out of me.  I don't want to do anything and my creativity seems to have died .  But since I learned my lesson last time I'm waiting to see the doc and wean myself off slowly.  Then I plan on doing without any kind.  Only one person says I am a grouch (my husband). Ill just be my grouchy little self.  And maybe then Ill feel like doing things again like writing on here.

Whole lotta shaking going on

Wow! What an insane first month of 2012.  Lots of changes going on at work.  The meat dept manager was fired at the end of Dec for screwing with his inventory numbers and he was stealing from the store.  Keith was moved up to take the dept on.  Hes a nice guy and I hope he can get it straightened out.  A week ago Scott the store manager was taken out of our store, and demoted to asst manager at another location.  I hate that.  He was a really good manager to work under and Ive had some really crappy ones before.  They moved a manager from one of the other locations to be manager at my store.  I had worked with him years ago at another location long before he was in management.  Every one was on edge because we didnt know how he was going to be.  The employees didnt trust him and I had an uneasy feeling about all of it.  The company moved and or demoted 21 managers. We were thinking he was sent in to clean house.  After the first week we are all breathing a little easier.  He seems to be an ok guy, just coming in to try and fix some probs that Scott had hitting numbers.

He did suspend the produce manager for a week.  He was padding his inventory.

And I must be losing my touch. I usually know whats coming down the road long before it hits the store and all of this totally blindsided me.  There have been incidents that have happened at the main office 2 hrs away and I knew before the info was sent to the store levels.  Ive lost my mojo.

Fresh Start

First day of a new year and it feels so good to have a fresh start.

2010 was cursed I swear.  I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had a double mastectomy. I spent the rest of 2010 going through chemo and radiation.  The week of my surgery my son in law was busted for having a meth lab on the rental  property.   He went to jail and my daughter and grand daughter moved back home.  Thank God they were 3 hours away in Illinois when all that happened. 

I was rear ended on the way into work one morning.  No one was hurt and my car had a very small amount of damage.  The tail pipe was bent and there were a few small cracks in the back bumper.  The car that hit me was totalled and had to be towed away.

My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer and had to start going through chemo also.

Both my husband and my youngest daughter had to go to the hospital at different times because of kidney stones.

A guy I had been friends with since we were like 2 died of congestive heart failure.  We went to the same preschool and went all the way through to graduation in 1982.  My mom didn't even tell me til a month had passed because I was in the middle of treatments and she didn't want to upset me.

Told you that year was cursed.

2011 was spent recovering and getting back to normal after the previous year.

So 2012 has to be better in every way.  I am due a year with out a disaster every month.  This is going to be it.

Kissing Turkey Butt

Yesterday a coworker posted on facebook that he was getting ready to head into work.  He works as a cashier and in the office.  No office yesterday so he was cashier.  This is his first Thanksgiving working here.  He posted that it would probably be boring and that if he had 25 customers he'd kiss a turkeys butt.  Ive been there long enough to know what the sales are really like for Thanksgiving day.  Everyone forgets something and of course you get the procrastinators. I replied that he had better start puckering up because we usually get slammed.  We had over 600 transaction between 7 and 3 yesterday.  He didn't work today but he does tomorrow.  I'm going to buy him a chapstick and send him to the meat dept.>:)   I'm not the only one who saw that post.  We have it in writing and we're going to hold him to it.  If I get a pic Ill put it on here.

Im Still Here

OK. I give up.  I'll just write when I feel like it and I wont beat myself up when I don't.  If you follow me and read what I write then I really do appreciate it and I'm sorry I don't really have that interesting of a life.

I love Halloween and I really like Fall and Halloween decorations better than Christmas.  But anyone who works retail knows that once Halloweenhits its pretty much hell at work til January first.  The sales numbers are great but people are really at their worst and they treat people trying to help them like dirt.  I wonder if it makes them feel important and big to make some one else feel small. 

Here are two cakes I did for Halloween.  The one with the ghost and tree I do every year and Its my favorite.

The orange and black one is done with orange airbrush and then a Halloween place mat with cut outs used as a stencil and black airbrush.

Not much else going on right now.

Summer Is Over

I know its been a bit since my last post.  I attended the fall food show for work on the 5th.  Here are some pics from this one.  No cake contest with the fall one.

Work is also switching over to being an IGA.  They had a huge grand opening for all the Evansville stores including mine even though our remodel wont start til January.  They didnt want to do all that construction over the holidays.  Since all the big shots would be wandering the area they expected us to be perfect.  I was there from 530 in the morning til 8 that night.  I lived there for a bit.  Ive been on vacation for the past week.  I go back to work tomorrow.  I dont want to go. I feel like kicking and screaming NOOOO I DONT WANNA. Like a two year old.

I found out that my new phone has gps and geocaching apps on it.  So i found two geochaches thias past week.  One was on one of the buehler lots!  One was les than half a mile from my house.  I didnt find the one I really wanted to get though.  Its ain a really old cemetery and I think it was so overgropwn I didnt even find the cemetary.  Im going to try for that one again.

Can anyone tell me what these flowers are. Im sure they are something really common and simple. I just dont know what they are.  The neighbor lady gave them to me when she moved cause I like the color so well.

I took down my hummingbird feeders today and cleaned up and put out my regualar feeders and suet cages.  I cleaned up the flower beds and yes I have the poison ivy again.  On my neck and my eye.  I look so cute again. I am doped up on benedryl and my spellcheck does not seem to be working so excuse any typos please.  I really dont want to go back to work.

Did I mention I dont wanna work?

Restless and ready for a change

It has been a rough couple of weeks at work and it may be rougher the next few.  I am going to have to make some unpopular changes on how things are and I may be the only one left standing.  I need to live up to my name and haul out the axe.

I am restless and not really sure what it is I'm wanting.  The season changing is part of it.  I get this way every spring and every fall even more so.  I think I'm setting up to hibernate for winter.  I want to redo all my rooms with warm, darker colors.  I hate that in the winter I go to work in the dark and I come home in the dark.  There are days that go by that I don't see daylight at all.

I am still sitting at that 18 pound weight loss.  It really is harder this round.  It doesn't help that I eat when I am stressed out.  I have been so under stress here lately that I think I could twang in the wind.