Just Blah

I know I haven't posted for a long time.  I am on a new antidepressant and I do not like it. This is the third one I have been on.  The tamoxifen can cause depression though that's not really what it does to me.  I feel real irritable and mad all the time.  The first one made me feel jittery all the time so quit it.  The second seemed to work well and I took it for a few months til they decided it would cause problems with the tamoxifen.  I quit it cold turkey.  Learned my lesson.  Won't do that again.  Five days after I stopped it I had a complete meltdown.  They tall you it takes awhile to build up in your system but it must take five days to leave it.  OK the problem with this one is that it seems to suck the life right out of me.  I don't want to do anything and my creativity seems to have died .  But since I learned my lesson last time I'm waiting to see the doc and wean myself off slowly.  Then I plan on doing without any kind.  Only one person says I am a grouch (my husband). Ill just be my grouchy little self.  And maybe then Ill feel like doing things again like writing on here.

Whole lotta shaking going on

Wow! What an insane first month of 2012.  Lots of changes going on at work.  The meat dept manager was fired at the end of Dec for screwing with his inventory numbers and he was stealing from the store.  Keith was moved up to take the dept on.  Hes a nice guy and I hope he can get it straightened out.  A week ago Scott the store manager was taken out of our store, and demoted to asst manager at another location.  I hate that.  He was a really good manager to work under and Ive had some really crappy ones before.  They moved a manager from one of the other locations to be manager at my store.  I had worked with him years ago at another location long before he was in management.  Every one was on edge because we didnt know how he was going to be.  The employees didnt trust him and I had an uneasy feeling about all of it.  The company moved and or demoted 21 managers. We were thinking he was sent in to clean house.  After the first week we are all breathing a little easier.  He seems to be an ok guy, just coming in to try and fix some probs that Scott had hitting numbers.

He did suspend the produce manager for a week.  He was padding his inventory.

And I must be losing my touch. I usually know whats coming down the road long before it hits the store and all of this totally blindsided me.  There have been incidents that have happened at the main office 2 hrs away and I knew before the info was sent to the store levels.  Ive lost my mojo.

Fresh Start

First day of a new year and it feels so good to have a fresh start.

2010 was cursed I swear.  I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had a double mastectomy. I spent the rest of 2010 going through chemo and radiation.  The week of my surgery my son in law was busted for having a meth lab on the rental  property.   He went to jail and my daughter and grand daughter moved back home.  Thank God they were 3 hours away in Illinois when all that happened. 

I was rear ended on the way into work one morning.  No one was hurt and my car had a very small amount of damage.  The tail pipe was bent and there were a few small cracks in the back bumper.  The car that hit me was totalled and had to be towed away.

My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer and had to start going through chemo also.

Both my husband and my youngest daughter had to go to the hospital at different times because of kidney stones.

A guy I had been friends with since we were like 2 died of congestive heart failure.  We went to the same preschool and went all the way through to graduation in 1982.  My mom didn't even tell me til a month had passed because I was in the middle of treatments and she didn't want to upset me.

Told you that year was cursed.

2011 was spent recovering and getting back to normal after the previous year.

So 2012 has to be better in every way.  I am due a year with out a disaster every month.  This is going to be it.