New Year Starting Over

This is my first post and its very scary to do this. I have kept journals for years but unless someone has been sneaking peeks at them, they were for my eyes only. I dont know which would be worse, someone reading what I write or no one. What ever . Here I am.

Starting this year just like I started 2010. I think that 2010 was cursed for me and 2011 is going to be better. I started off with the same old resolution that many people make of losing weight. I set up a plan for myself and stuck to it. By mid March i had lost 18 lbs. Thats when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Losing weight had lost its top priority spot. I had a double masectomy at the end of March and went through chemo through all of the summer. I ate wheatever I felt like and what ever tasted good to me at the time. I have never been a fast food eater but Mcdonalds 1/4 pounder with cheese, fries and a large tea was what I wanted after every chemo. By the time i finished radiation this fall I had gained my 18 lbs back. So I am starting over again.

So here I am trying to make changes in my life that are for my good. The weight is part of it so Ill feel better about myself. I also plan on doing some changes for my mental health. Number one on my list is that I will no longer bring work home with me. It will be done at work on the timeclock only. My time is no longer free. Its valuable to me so I am no longer giving it away.

I am also not going to let something thats bothering just simmer in my mind. If I dont like or dont agree with something being said or done I will speak up!

I am also decluttering. Clutter stresses me out. I like order. I read somewhere that you should imagine that youve lost everything in a fire. You only keep those things that you would replace.

Im sure everyone has things in storage that they dont even remember having.

Well this is it for my first post. I hope it gets better as I continue.